ha ha postin... just something i used to believe in in a past life or something.... damn i really should do it since so much has changed. ha thats funny too...

i pray for u john and anne 2.... best of any luck...

copied from my myspace...

my last prom...

wow what a night... who would have thought. well like always things didnt go according to planned. but who cares. i woke up at the ass crack of dawn after being out all night, only to wash my car and get it ready. then i had to clean my room a lil. 10am = hair appointment. wow was it cute. so umm at like 1130 kat started getting ready. which means hey krissy do my hair please. no biggie. at alaynas by like 1230. were bored. so we decided to go to orange blossom, sorta half dressed up. fuck was it hott. oh well then we see alex. chill with him for a while. decide its time to go because we eventually need to get ready. then off to lunch with cory at sub station. awsome pre prom lunch. lol. so then all of a sudden we realize like fuck its four and were not even close to being ready. make up in a rush. then i run across town to get jessica. lol she looked so cute. back to laynas to take a million and one pix. which came out so cute. but laynas bf still isnt there. well he finally shows up come like six and we take more pix. did i mention that it was like 100 degress that day. well fuck we finally leave at liek 620 get gas on the road at exactly 635. the drive was fun. cute boys in the gto. lol. and out the sunroof like crazy. somehow victor found us. which was crazy. so we pull into the prom parking lot at exactly 702. ha ha. i heart the damn toll roads. they roked. lol. so we cant be there on time. so were like what the hell lets go have dinner now. horray for wahoos. and 24 minitue parking. divine intervention and shit. lol. back to prom for madness. boy did i see lots o people. lol. yatch ride. umm kareoke. dancing. which got me in trouble. lol. oh and my favorite person too. lol but that didnt work out. anyhow after prom parties got sorta shut down. we went to balboa. lol it was so nice. but frikin freezing. so we arrive home finally at 345 after dropping everyone off and stopping at del taco.... gosh so much more happened then that. but brief summary cuz now im freekin sick. gosh damnit. oh well i went back to the beach yesterday. and it was sooooo nice. lol. ummm ill post some pix later. need to catch up on my loss of sleep from the weekend. p.s. now im sick

if i fell in love with you.... would you love me back or let me chase you until i give up and cry? i fell in love and now im alone. i hate this. better yet i cant say a word about it. ppl have begun to ask me questions to which i myself dont always know the answers. and the scary part is those questions are about me. i want to be attached. if for no other reason then to limit my boldness and contain my insecurities. someone to have and to hold. not forever.but for now for this momoment...

i fell in love or so i think... but now im on the floor alone. irony. im not crying or sad but avenging my love lost in someone eles' pleasures... twisted huh? fallen and can't get up.... i think not!
life is a funny funny thing.... how will you find out?

if i fell in love with you.... would you love me back or let me chase you until i give up and cry? would you want to get to know me or use me for what i will provide? if i trusted you would you be open and honest back or secluded and afraid too? is love too much to ask? or do we need just someone to have and to hold. not forever.but for now for this momoment...